I don’t know if it is a coincidence or not. After I wrote about the Star Ferry this morning, in the afternoon, I received messages from one of my colleagues in HK that she plans to leave the company. It is a shocking news to me as well, because we have been working together in the past years, though in different areas, but overall, we are in the same big big team.
I said subconsciously that everyone I know has left/ is leaving, and I felt so upset every time I received this kind of message. Though I know I can’t change anything, still it takes me some time to accept the change.
We haven’t seen each other in the past years, and we haven’t made any video call at all. Everything can be settled or solved via email or quick message.
Sometimes I feel we are so intimate when we are talking, but actually, for anyone who I haven’t met before, I also feel that I am talking with someone like she is floating in the air. I can’t imagine how she looks, and how her voice sounds like. Maybe she is not a real person.
In normal days, these kind of concerns doesn’t affect anything, but when I know she is leaving, it feels like a regret that I haven’t met her in real life. To me, her image remains to be unreal. I may remember what she has said before, but memory about her is weightless. It is a lack of materials to construct her image.
We haven’t thought about having a video call. I am so familiar of working/talking with someone else without seeing each other which nearly gives me an illusion meeting is unnecessary. However, at this moment, I would think what if I had met her before, will my feeling or memory change a little.
Maybe it is because I haven’t seen many people in recent days, instead it reminds me of the importance of meeting each other. At least when we are able to do so. It could be no purpose, but just want to see someone and remember someone real.
